Have you ever been in a position or in a state that mood drives you all the way? Cause I probably feeling the same way too, lately. I was in unstable condition where I put priority on my last, and the secondary on the top. Dunno why but in terms of guilt, I feel like a criminal at least for my self. I felt collapse when I kept on repeating the same thing and realized that I was wrong at the same time. I like what I'm doing, which make me forget about my obligation. Both are positive, I just can't see the line that I'm doing a multitask activities, all I know I wasn't able to handle them both. It's an error point. Gosh, I need to fix this.